Didn’t know if I should post before of after the road test but couldn’t resist making a small recap. Needless to say, I’m nervous about. I’ve had great driving days and not so great driving days, so I don’t really know how this is gonna turn out. In my head it’s a 50/50 shot. Slowly I’ve been able to force myself to stop agonizing over it.
It’s been about 2 months now (I think) since I started consulting an online counselor about my mental health. While mostly we dealt with the past and I gained new perspectives, currently we are dealing with my future fears and anxieties. I’ve also been dutiful with the “Unwinding Anxiety” book methods. They’ve proven indeed helpful and I’m slowly really realizing how unforgiving I’ve been towards myself. Insanely self-critical. I’m not quite there yet, but I’ve been coping with my lows a lot better than I ever have. I do binge eat at times, but it doesn’t offer half the satisfaction it used to and it’s not nearly with the volumes that it used to be.
Overall, I’m doing better and will just brave the road test however it comes. I have the DMV driving theory test soon after and luckily, with that I’m confident. Theory is always something I’m comfortable with. Actual skills have a bigger learning curve for me.
My weight loss is so and so. I have rediscovered my love for jogging though. About 2 times a week I go jogging with my mother and today I went alone. There was actually a virtual race happening (I pick the time and route), it was 7km and I barely completed it! I took the current selfie just after the run.
For now I’ll be signing off and Ill update again once my road test comes and goes.
Thanks for reading!
-Ann
One Day at a Time 
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